Checking in!!

Hey everyone!

Been a few weeks since I’ve updated on my weightloss journey!
I’ve managed to stick to my weighing in once a week and since 1st September I’ve lost 7lbs.

It feels frustrating to loose 1lb a week each week, but looking back and it’s now 7lbs I’m delighted and I saw a weight today (11st 11lbs) that I haven’t seen in over 6 months. My goal is to keep on the same level of loss until Christmas, which will bring me to 11 stone.

I gained 1lb last week after a tough emotional weekend, my sisters 4th anniversary came around and I went out with my parents for a very indulgent meal with too much wine, hard to believe it’s 4 years since she passed away, time is going so fast!!

This morning I was down 2.5lbs. I think the fact I’m back walking after the recent foot injury has helped, I’m getting on average 2.5-3 miles each day and feeling the benefit mentally too!!

Off now to search for inspiration for pork mince for dinner but here’s a photo of me at my friends wedding 2 weeks ago, in a dress I didn’t think would ever fit me again!

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One small step….off the scales!!!

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Last week, on Thursday morning, 10 days ago, to be precise, I took the batteries out of my weighing scales.

The scales that I stood ok every.single.morning (after going to the loo and no clothes on naturally). And every morning I would get upset. So I would do it again every night before bed, so I could judge how bad the morning weigh in would be.

And THEN I PAID to go once a week to get weighed by someone else!! And I’d gain or loose the same 3/4 pound, for 2 years, and leave miserable, and binge eat on the way home.

So, as I said in the last post, something changed. Something had started and I don’t know what it is.

I weighed myself on Thursday morning then I took out the batteries.
Then, I celebrated my wonderful, empowering step by having lunch out with my beloved nana, I had curry, extra veg; no rice and pinched a few of nana’s chips.

I met my friend and her gorgeous daughter and we went for a walk and had coffee and cake.

And I went out for dinner with my husband, had 2 glasses of red wine, starter and a delicious risotto.

Then I came home and went to bed. I didn’t weigh myself. I knew I couldn’t. I had given the batteries to himself with strict instructions to keep them for a week.

I woke up the next morning and didn’t weigh myself. I looked at the scales, it occurred to me to search for the batteries but I didn’t.

Writing it down and even talking about this ridiculously unhealthy habit has made me realise how free I feel not weighing myself every day.

I need to work on my self-image and stop hating my reflection but now I don’t depress myself every morning.

If you are a slave to the scales, I hope this entry may help you realise it Dosen’t have to control your life.

So I will leave you with this image and recipe, because now I bake with my son without guilt – I just have to not eat the entire batch!!

Chewy Chocolate Chip Cookies

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Something new…

Sometimes, something triggers a change. I needed a change.

I started Crossfit. I’ve been going twice a week for 3 weeks now and loving it while hating how hard I find it!!!realising how very, very unfit I am and puffing my way through workouts has been a struggle but I’ve found something I know I will keep going to and can’t wait to see myself getting fitter and stronger!!!

Food:

So, for a few weeks now I’ve been trying a new lifestyle, experimenting with Paleo recipes, some lo-carb, some just made up and I like them recipes!!

But basically I’ve been trying to cut out processed food. No bread, no pasta, no rice, no sweets, crisps, chocolate, etc.

It’s rough, I won’t lie, I’ve slipped, about every 2nd day a rogue half slice of toast has found it’s way to me, or some cake, I can’t resist cake, but for the most part I’m embracing the new challenge, actually it’s no longer feeling like a challenge, it’s becoming more just what I do.

I feel better, I’m sleeping better, I’m not bloated all the time. I notice when I do eat processed food the instant and negative effect it has on my body.

The paleo theory tells me no cheese, no dairy, I’m not ready to abandon cheese in my life but now I only have a little, Maybe in a salad or grated over my beloved taco fries (which I now just have with homemade garlic mayo instead of the fat free yoghurt), or in a salad, but it’s max twice a week. I use lactose free milk in my tea and coffee now.

Little changes, adding up

I plan to get back to posting again and hope to share my new cooking style, and most of what I cook can still be adapted to the SW way if that’s what you like to do!!

breakfast today
Last night we had a meal out, with red wine, a temporary relaxing of eating habits, there was breadcrumbs on my starter, and rice in my main, but I am learning to enjoy my treats and leave the guilt go, that is the hardest step, letting the guilt over food go.

Today for breakfast, usually I would hit the toast after a night out, but today I chopped lettuce and spinach, made some scrambled eggs with a little butter, fried up some left over chilli until crisp and topped with some rough guacamole.

Amazing!

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Juice Diet Day 1 – Done……sort of

Ok. I am writing this entry on what is day 2 of my 3 day detox with Tonic Juices.

It’s going to be longer than 3 days at the rate i’m going, which is not to plan, lets say!

Tuesday Morning, Day 1.

9am. I have the Sunrise Juice. It’s nice, bit carrotty but hey, i’m on track, i’m on plan and I am DOING this!! This is after the school cycle and back. I’ve had my hot water and lemon. I am on FIRE!

11am. I am STARVING

12pm. Juice time. Green Stuff. It’s ok, I’m not mad about it but it’s not tasting as gross as it looks.

1pm. Starving

1.30pm. prepare pesto pasta for toddler. This is torture. Pasta has never looked so good. I’l just take one bit to make sure it’s cooked ok. The 20th piece tasted about right.

2.30pm. cannot.stop.thinking.about.food

3.30pm. Starving. Almost ready to go look in cupboards, considering making soup.

4pm. Reaching for the afternoon green juice. Friend texts me. I’ve told her i’m detoxing after crazy week last week, I didn’t mention what kind.

Friend: “lets do dinner, one last blow out”

Me, immediate reply “ok, dont’ tell husband, i’m meant to be detoxing”

Friend: “Our Secret”

So I Skipped the 4pm and the dinner juice.

6pm. Go upstairs to get out of tracksuit bottoms i’ve been lazing about in all day to get changed. Lie on bed for 20 seconds, wake up 30 minutes later. Feel WRECKED

7pm. Collect Friend. Go to restaurant.

I went out for dinner. The Shame. I had chicken liver Pate and 2 slices of toast and started to feel full….weird!! I ordered a grilled chicken fillet with lemon, and it came with a side salad and I ordered veggies as a side instead of chips (amazing or what!)

I managed less than half of it. Literally could not eat another mouthful. Had a pain in my stomach. Finished with a cup of green tea and rolled home.

Came clean to husband, admitted to chicken and salad, didn’t mention the pate!

I have been drinking water all day, every time I feel hungry I drink water. Whats strange is I still feel dehydrated, my lips are dry. I bring a herbal tea to bed.

Went to bed at 10 and read for a while, fell asleep really quickly it seemed but woke up with sweats a few times during the night!

Weigh in Check this morning: Down 1lb

Back tomorrow with Day 2’s Diary (confession)